I'm back, peeps. After almost two and a half fucking years. Yeah, I went back to being a Shadow. It was nice. Fun. While it lasted.
It's been, what, two hours since you people last heard from Munnin?
Wanna know what happened?
Long fucking story.
I'll tell you later.
Basic gist: Father broke into the Dark and saved my ass, I serve him now. I'm finally doing my job as a Seeker. You should all pray I never have to come after you.
Now, if you don't mind, I have three birthdays to catch up on. Guess I finally got what I wanted. Eighteen at last.
I'd make you a Three Years Cake, but you're a Proxy now. Shame.
ReplyDeleteWasn't exactly a choice. And Father is better than Darkness any day.
DeleteOh I see, giving up as usual? I thought you were better then this....
ReplyDeleteI do want you to know, I'll avoid you best I can. While I'd rather not hurt you.....if you come anywhere near either me or Alice, I will rip you apart. I'm completely serious, until you're done serving the thing that's trying to kill your friends I want you no where near me.
Oh and about it not being a choice. Bullshit, it's always a choice and we both know it.
Know what? After two and a half fucking years, I'd like to see you trying to resist. It took a fucking month and a half before they broke me. A month and a half of nonstop torture. I begged them to fucking kill me, okay? They refused.
DeleteAnd then I got to watch as two Eldritch abominations fought for weeks over me. Father won and I got carted away to the Path and doctored up. And while I was there, I was loved, appreciated. Father treated me the way that my actual dad never has. With love.
Tell me now that I had a choice.
I have no desire to kill you. Any of you. I still consider you my friends even though you abandoned me for two and a half years.
Ok roy...your just being rude...You need to get over yourself and stop being a complete asshole to her. She doesnt exactly have a choice in this, and i dont think the way your acting is making her feel any better.
DeleteKendra: You know what Kendra? Shut the fuck up. She does have a choice, you ALWAYS have a choice. You can't even begin to realize what I've done to try and help her, the pain I've endured to save her.
DeleteAshley: Abandoned you? Princess, I thought you knew me better than that. I had no way of knowing where you were, I was in the middle of fucking no where for the last eight days. You know how much I care about you. Fuck Ashley I fought a hopeless battle against Lore herself just to try and save you. You really think I would abandon you?
Two and a half years, Roy. Two and a fucking half years. Even if I had a choice before, I don't now. And even if I did, I wouldn't change this. I am safe, I am happy.
DeleteI would have preferred death to this, once. You know that. But sometimes you don't get what you want.
You are safe. But for how long? No one would be surprised if Slendy one day decided to shove a tentacle through your skull. He's done it to his "children" before. I know that you won't listen to me. That you think everything I'm saying is bullshit.
DeleteBut when things go to shit again, I'll be there to try and save you. Like I always am.
I'm a Seeker, Roy. He wouldn't hurt me even when I was against him. Why would he harm me now?
DeleteI appreciate it, Roy, but I won't need saving.
Good for you roy, want a cookie? What, do you want everyone to see what you've done and just think your so great? Just call you a hero? Well news flash, you arent a hero. And no one really gives a fuck what you've done. And dont you even dare saying that you saved me. Because you didnt. Nothing you did, made even one bit of difference, because as you can obviously tell darkness isnt leaving me alone. Shes still here and as bitchy as ever.
DeleteAshley: Welcome to the family dear. I must say, however, that you still had a choice and you made it. I am not trying to shame you for making that choice as it would be astoundingly hypocritical; I am merely pointing out that you chose your path.
DeleteAh, Ritter can make things feel so good. I understand. I must caution you though; while he may be keeping you close right now- this might not last forever. How will I put this... If this were a chess game, He would be the king and you would, perhaps, be a rook. You are a valuable piece but still a piece to be used and potentially lost for the sake of the king. The king might work to keep you close, but would shed no tears over using you when necessary. That's how it seems to me anyway. But maybe I'm wrong. In any case, again, welcome. The proxies I have come to know have been much better family to me than the one I was born into. I hope you will also experience this familial bond. I wish you luck and as much happiness as this path will allow.
Roy: My hero, I must say that while I agree with you. You are coming across as rather harsh and rude. Her choice was completely understandable given the circumstances. While I congratulate you on your continued efforts to rise above and to keep fighting Ritter and the other Fears, I'll thank you not to shame anyone for doing things differently. Besides, look at your old blog. Don't you recall how many times you hit a wall and were ready to give up? Don't you remember that you had support; people to help you?
Tell me, hero, what do you think would have happened if no one had spoken to you or helped you?
Oh yes, and happy birthdays Ashley.
DeleteThanks for the welcome, and I'll keep your advice in mind. It's typically a bad idea to ignore advice. Like, y'know "Don't go anywhere, Ashley" really should've listened to that.... Ah well. It is what it is.
DeleteAnd thank you. I will make cake. Or someone will make cake with me. I don't know.
We didn't abandon you. You just went out to a cafe and got kidnapped.
DeleteYeah, I know. It's disorienting as hell to have been gone for two years and come back to find out it's only been a day. Just.... Worst jetlag in history, okay?
DeleteI can't blame you guys for what happened. I was stupid as hell and it bit me in the ass. Don't you dare think that hasn't haunted me every day for the past two and a half years.
I said nor believed anything of the sort.
DeleteI'm sorry. This is just kinda hard. God, I'm in worse denial now than I was when I first saw Father.
DeleteNo worries. Denial is normal after trauma. Gather your thoughts.
DeleteI'm going to have to explain everything sooner or later. Might as well get that out of the way soon.
DeleteUm... welcome to the club then? I'm sorry we don't have any t-shirts, we can't seem to decide on a design. I personally wanted Slendy surrounded by $20 bills but... that didn't go over too well with some of the more hardcore devotees.
ReplyDeleteAnd I am sorry for what you had to endure, but I've been offline for the past few days (I know I should have checked up on blogs, but I just... there was no feeling for me to do it. Backsliding into depression is a bitch for sure.). And even then, I wouldn't know the first thing about getting you out of there. If I did, I would have tried for sure.
If you like, maybe after I get all of my posts up and climb up out of this rut I'm in and talk to Skye and figure out what's going on between us now because of my mission, I'd be willing to have you Path over here and I could try my hand at boxed cake or something...
I have a t-shirt, actually. I made it back in my early runner days when I still thought the operator symbol would protect me. It's a cool t-shirt, I still wear it.
DeleteHonestly, me blaming you guys for not saving me is stupid. None of you could have gotten into the Dark within the hour out here it took to break me. And there's especially no way that you could have actually saved me and helped me get out.
That sounds pretty good. Catch up on some birthdays :D
Sweet haha. I'd probably wear one ironically to be honest.
DeleteAnd it's fine, it's a way with dealing with your anger and feelings about what happened. It's better than locking yourself up in your room and avoiding people and I'm so not doing that right now....
I wonder if I could make a three-layer cake. One for each year, you know?
......I may or may not be locked in my room listening to creepypasta while avoiding people....
DeleteThat could be fun. I could help, if you want, I'm pretty good at baking. It comes from a mom that liked to throw things at my head so I could teach myself.
Forgive me, but you know what this means. I do not link any who serve that thing. I am supposed to be neutral, but somethings make that so hard. -- Jack
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DeleteI understand fully. Father has his enemies, and, by serving him, I've put myself as their enemy as well.
DeleteThank you for understanding. It is nothing with you. It's just him. Anyways, Mr. Carter and I both wish you a happy (kinda) 18th birthday! -- Jack
DeleteAnd sixteenth and seventeenth. Though I kinda celebrated the seventeenth one Shadow style. Looking back, it was disturbing as hell, but I remember it seeming fun at the time.
DeleteYes, a lot of things seem fun at the time. But once the moment passes you realize how big a hole you just dug yourself into. Regret is terrible. Be glad that you will, one day, die. I have many choices that I'd have done differently. Think carefully before every action. -- Jack
DeleteOh, it was still fun until I stopped being a Shadow. It was a frame of mind, I guess.
DeleteI'm sure it was. I'll still be around due to being Mr. Carter's 'messenger boy', but I have business to attend to. Be safe. -- Jack
DeleteI'll try. Waiting for my first 'mission'. I have a feeling it won't be fun.
DeleteMessage from Mr. Carter 'So, will you tell us anything at all about the missions? Or at the very least warn any of us if your mission is to come after us?' --Jack
DeleteYeah. I'll give you fair warning and plenty of time to prepare. You're all my friends, and I won't abuse that relationship if I'm sent after you. If I'm coming for you, you'll know it.
DeleteYou should pray that you never have to come after me.
ReplyDeleteI'm praying that I don't have to come after any of you. I still consider you my friends, though this decision probably caused you all to change that on your end.
DeleteI still consider you a friend.
DeleteI respect it was a difficult decision to make.
I respect that your Master cut you a pretty sweet deal, as far as deals with Fears go.
But I couldn't let any Seeker that stood within fifty feet of me live. Too risky.
Thank you.
DeleteDoes that mean I can stand fifty-one feet away from you?
Mi casa es tu casa.
DeleteWelcome to the fold.
ReplyDeleteYou're back?! Yay!
ReplyDeleteYou're a Seeker serving Father? O_O
Yeah..... I'll post what happened later. When I find time.
DeleteYou ignored my warning thrice.
ReplyDeleteTwo have now payed the price.
Three to go, who shall disappear?
Who shall take the blame?
And who shall seek revenge?
I have spoken all I can to you.
Time has come for me as well.
My Fate is sealed.
I will not survive to see the morrow.
Okay, seriously, I you want people to pay attention to you, then cryptic rhymes on their blogs isn't going to help your case. Damn, I nearly forgot about you.
DeleteSpeaking of cryptic rhymes, this one kinda buggered out on the rhyming after the second line.
Sorry if I may seem kinda apathetic, but I have no idea what you think I'm going to do. Disappear is fairly obvious, but take the blame? Seek revenge? They make sense, but the question here is 'for what?'
Now, I know you won't respond to this because you supposedly are dead, but it's fucking 6:11 in the morning and I'm only about halfway awake.