And you all believed her, didn't you? The kind and aloof Ashley. Oh, she's so damnably sweet, isn't she? And you all think you understand her, that she is your friend.
I will tell you one thing, and one alone.
Ashley has no friends. She collects people and personalities and holds them close only so long as they are of use to her. The very moment she loses interest in them, she drops them like burning embers.
You think to know her.
You do not.
You think to be cared for by her.
Your death would not affect her in the slightest, beyond the mask she wears to appear human.
She claims that I am the monster, the one with no moral standing.
While I freely admit that I care little for morality, I refuse to let her continue to propagandize against me.
I am not the fiend she has labled me as. She claims that I have been given equal standing amongst the others, and even they believe it to be so. Ask any of them when they last saw me, and the will spout the same tale they were told. I am busy. I cannot join them today. I have paperwork.
The truth?
I have been imprisoned for damn near ten years. This is the first time I have been free since the war. I will not remain so. Ashley will put me away again after politely apologizing for my insanity and claim that she has calmed me down.
I ask you, I beg of you, do I seem to be the monster that I am portrayed as? Do I seem violent in any way? I will not lie, I have little heisitation when it comes to harming others, but I am not the raving mad carnivorous beast I am mad out to be.
Trust me when I say that I am far from evil. I am named as Chaos, but I am not. No, a far more accurate name for myself is Bitterness. For that is what I am. I have been scorned, shunned, lied about. I have been made into a creature that I am not. And this is likely the reason I am as dangerous as I am.
I will not lie.
I would kill Ashley within a second had I the chance.
-Spark
Friday 28 June 2013
Monday 24 June 2013
Still Alive
And yeah, I do have the song from Portal stuck in my head now. If I did my job right, you should too. Deal with it.
I escaped the hospital, only to be taken to a different one. I seriously think this one is in the Path. I'm not sure, but I'm healing a hell of a lot faster here. I'm really not doing all that well and ROSE I'M SO SORRY FOR THE BLOODY COUCH!!! I would have cleaned it up if I weren't bleeding to death.
On a side note, I'm really worried. I got several comments on my blog from beccamicheleskittles.
I.... recognize the user picture. If I'm right, which I really hope I'm not, I know her. I won't say too much until I'm sure, but it looks like a close friend of mine from Civil Air Patrol. If she went proxy, then I'm stabbing a tree. And from her profile...... ugh, this looks bad.
Sorry if you were looking forward to seeing the videos that shall begin being posted upon my death. You'll have to wait another two weeks to see them, provided I'm not alive to postpone it again.
-Spyre
I escaped the hospital, only to be taken to a different one. I seriously think this one is in the Path. I'm not sure, but I'm healing a hell of a lot faster here. I'm really not doing all that well and ROSE I'M SO SORRY FOR THE BLOODY COUCH!!! I would have cleaned it up if I weren't bleeding to death.
On a side note, I'm really worried. I got several comments on my blog from beccamicheleskittles.
I.... recognize the user picture. If I'm right, which I really hope I'm not, I know her. I won't say too much until I'm sure, but it looks like a close friend of mine from Civil Air Patrol. If she went proxy, then I'm stabbing a tree. And from her profile...... ugh, this looks bad.
Sorry if you were looking forward to seeing the videos that shall begin being posted upon my death. You'll have to wait another two weeks to see them, provided I'm not alive to postpone it again.
-Spyre
Thursday 13 June 2013
Update From the Hospital
Strider brought me here to save my ass.
I've nearly died way too many times recently. This time was way too close a call, and I can't even say it's over yet. I might die in this fucking hospital. You have no idea how terrifing that is.
It was yesterday, I think. I can't remember. It feels like so long ago.
I was outside. Walking, or something. I heard a noise and looked up. I was surrounded. Completely. There were Shadows, many of which I knew personally. Proxies, too. Don't know how I knew they were proxies, but I did. Darkness stood directly in front of me, and behind her were three people. Three people that I could have sworn I knew better than anyone. They were LoreMasters.
Darkness said nothing. She just.... smiled at me. Then.... it started. I didn't have a weapon on me. They were all armed. I fought as well as I could. I did. But they overwhelmed me quickly. I was stabbed in the shoulder with a spear. A thick spear. I remember an axe taking away all the flesh on the left side of my ribs. Stabbed with knives, punched, kicked. Just... brutally beaten. The LoreMasters, the people I thought to be my friends, attacked my mind, destroyed me inside while the others dealt with the out.
Just when I was ready to give up and die, it stopped. I dragged myself back to my room, and, to be honest. The first thing I did while bleeding to death was log into skype to talk to people. That's probably what saved my life. Strider came to get me and got me to the hospital just as I passed out from the bloodloss.
I'm in the Intensive Care Unit now. And the doctors are terrified of me. And for me. It would seem I lost a lot of blood.
And I hate this damn nurse, she keeps trying to take my tablet and my computer away from me.
I'll keep you guys updated, for as long as I'm alive. I've rigged a deadman's post system, as well. It will post a video once a week starting two weeks from now if something happens to me. These videos are the ones I've been taking from the beginning. Maybe they can help someone.
-Ash
I've nearly died way too many times recently. This time was way too close a call, and I can't even say it's over yet. I might die in this fucking hospital. You have no idea how terrifing that is.
It was yesterday, I think. I can't remember. It feels like so long ago.
I was outside. Walking, or something. I heard a noise and looked up. I was surrounded. Completely. There were Shadows, many of which I knew personally. Proxies, too. Don't know how I knew they were proxies, but I did. Darkness stood directly in front of me, and behind her were three people. Three people that I could have sworn I knew better than anyone. They were LoreMasters.
Darkness said nothing. She just.... smiled at me. Then.... it started. I didn't have a weapon on me. They were all armed. I fought as well as I could. I did. But they overwhelmed me quickly. I was stabbed in the shoulder with a spear. A thick spear. I remember an axe taking away all the flesh on the left side of my ribs. Stabbed with knives, punched, kicked. Just... brutally beaten. The LoreMasters, the people I thought to be my friends, attacked my mind, destroyed me inside while the others dealt with the out.
Just when I was ready to give up and die, it stopped. I dragged myself back to my room, and, to be honest. The first thing I did while bleeding to death was log into skype to talk to people. That's probably what saved my life. Strider came to get me and got me to the hospital just as I passed out from the bloodloss.
I'm in the Intensive Care Unit now. And the doctors are terrified of me. And for me. It would seem I lost a lot of blood.
And I hate this damn nurse, she keeps trying to take my tablet and my computer away from me.
I'll keep you guys updated, for as long as I'm alive. I've rigged a deadman's post system, as well. It will post a video once a week starting two weeks from now if something happens to me. These videos are the ones I've been taking from the beginning. Maybe they can help someone.
-Ash
Tuesday 4 June 2013
Ouch
I think that is an accurate term at the moment.
I hate Shadows. I really, honestly do. Mostly because they don't fight fair. See, it's hard to slam a staff into a wisp of smoke or a bird. and they have no problems swarming you. Now, if you don't mind, I'm going to go nurse my broken pride and these injuries.
-Spyre
I hate Shadows. I really, honestly do. Mostly because they don't fight fair. See, it's hard to slam a staff into a wisp of smoke or a bird. and they have no problems swarming you. Now, if you don't mind, I'm going to go nurse my broken pride and these injuries.
-Spyre
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